Reflecting into the past

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Pain is getting worse.... now I'm just scared.

Ok, so last night has been the absolute worst night of pain I have had in a very long time. My pain meds didn't even touch the pain. Lately, it has been causing more pain when I eat. So anyway, I was absolutely starving after my dr's appt yesterday. I decided to try some vegetable soup. I swear that was the worst mistake of my life! I was doubled over in pain for a good 6 hours after I ate. Now I'm scared to death to eat ANYthing at all! NOT what I need. I have lost 6 lbs in one week. That doesn't do much for my eating disorder, either. But I refuse to relapse on that one. I'm scared. I'm actually downright scared now! I had a CT w/ contrast last week to further test the cysts/lesions found on my liver and spleen. When I took the report to my GI doctor today, she explained it to me and I don't think I've ever teared up so fast in my life. She basically said she was concerned about malignancy in either my liver, spleen, or lung (apparently, I have something on my right lung that is concerning to my dr.). She is sending me for an MRI of my abdomen and an MRCP..... whatever that is. All I know is I HURT and I'M SCARED.


Barbara said...

OH NO! I am so sorry to read this and of course you are scared I would be terrified! Its been a few days since you've written, I hope you do an update soon. I am so sorry, I don't know where God is in all of these, sometimes I don't know what to think about the lack of answers in prayers.

Sending you a warm, gentle hug.